Unedited, as in my journal.
Cherry and I met up today. Picnick with dinner and fire (I made a fire, all by myself!) Bagels w/ tomato, avocado, and mozzarella. Walk down the railroad to a heartstopping view of the river, outlined in autumn colours. There was some wind and rain in these post-fire adventures. She got her mom to pick us up, and we got driven to her house. We hung out w/ the fam for a bit in the kitchen, loving some strawberry rhubarb pie in the process. Went upstair and after a brieft tour, settled down in her room. About 2-3 hrs of making out proceeded to happen, w/ intermittent converstaion. She's a medium-to-good kiser; possibly due to being a bassoonist, or possibly due to being young and eager, she presses herself in just a little too much, w/ just a little bit of a strange mouth shape when it's open. I'm not sure whether there just needs to be some practice going on here, or whether I will get into it (the kissing style she presents) or will need to bring it up eventually. It felt very high school, butg also very fresh and good. There was a lot of giggling, which I'm still not sure whether she got fed up with it at any point. Oh well! A together experience should incorporate every person's experience, otherwise it is each person alone, perhaps. She's unsure on the boobs-fondling thing, which I randomly had the intuition to ask about. So I said sounds like a no and proceeded to not incorporate the boobs into our play. :) She's a bit of a top! I'm cool w/ that, though would love to introduce her to more dynamics (I've started already! - teasing her a tad about the control thing, adn taking short spans of time to top her) and certainly would need to balance my being topped by her w/ lots of topping activities at home (rope practice, etc.)
Anyways... my hands were wanter-y with her ass, but she didn't say anything, and I did ask her at some point about it, annnd got a "I don't particularly mind." Which sounds horrid on paper, but at the time I heard it as a "yes, that's cool." So I will go w/ that for now. Perhaps check in w/ her, though I don't want to be preachery about it either; or perhaps I am afraid she will put other restrictions to our physicalities - but that's fair of her to do; and since I feel icky/unsure about it, I will most certainly ask.
P.S. Our safeword is horseradish! Ho ho ho! Horse.
I like the idea of having a communcal safeword, because then no one needs to be thinking about whether they are on top or on the bottom, or wehtehr it is appropriate for them to call the safeword in their situation. So yay. We didn't discuss explicitly what happens after, we just said "say it if you don't like what's going on." I feel like we both have the common sense to figure it out on the spot, though.
I want to give her the s.e.x. book by Heather Corinna, but at the same time, she does already have Opening Up (she chose it because the cover looked more promising/hopeful/soothing.) I don't want to overwhelm her w/ information, and it does seem to me like figuring out whether you can handle non-monogamy (ethical) is a pretty important step. So... I will do the 'sex-stuff' reserach, for now.
Making out is kind of like an addiction, a mellow on, in a way. So you keep coming back for more; it is the chosen activity for the night. There are magical moments, and simple moments.
I'm afraid to let her talk, to ask meaningful questions. I'm afraid to get to know her and her world; get abosrbed and intertwined in it, and then get to the point of collapse, or of pathetic tries to fix it, the broken yellow sun-umbrella-table-thing. We will see, we will see. And then what? yanno?
*dun dun dun dun*
So, slowly; get to know her slowly, through other activities and wittnesing the decisions she makes. '
'She' is an exciting pronoun.
Cherry has only gone to 2nd base (once) w/ her ex.
I will expand on one or both of these thigns later, as I am currently exhausted. Poof!
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