Vampirism and other RISKY activities

I've decided to... allow for, and acknowledge, my vampirism in a sense greater than simply voyeuristic. It is dark, but hot. My kinks seem to be within and beyond edgeplay, which both thrills and terrifies me. It's intoxicating: to think of biting someone, fangs piercing their resilient skin, and drinking their blood. I don't want to just dream about it anymore.

I will be writing this blog and researching the activity of drinking blood at the same time. So that is what this post will contain. My research, my responses, others' opinions on the matter. Some relevant side-notes of other activities that are mentioned as at the same risk level. The content with change with time as I add more things/edit. *nods definitively*

Interesting hearsay:
* eating garlic with make your blood taste better
* stopping smoking for at least two days will make your blood taste better
* many players know shit-all about hepatitis (a/b/c) transmission

I wish...
* I had sharp enough fangs to draw blood by biting
* Omnomnom blood

Oh my Goddess.

This shot is from a user's Fetlife account. The caption is "more from the ritual." This photograph is incredibly gorgeous, and it literally fills me with trepidation. It makes my breathing jump faster, makes me body experience some sort of prolonged rush all over. The drops of blood in the glass, the ritualistic setting and matching of colours... it's very intense for me. *breathes*

Looks like for the minimal amount of scarring and maximum amount of blood, phlebotomy is really the best way to go: needles (no scarring), tubes(method of transmission), feeding from a vein (maximum blood amount in shortest amount of time). Medical equipment. A course in phlebotomy, with lots of practice. *ponders* There is a Medical Assistant course at a technical institute where I live, but it's near four grand for 19 weeks (including internship)... so it would be a serious investment and consideration. Of course, the course involved many other things, not just Phlebotomy... so if I could find a course in just that... hm... someone online suggested that at least 100 'pokes' with a needle should be done successfully before one is qualified at all, really. So that is an interesting standard to try and search with. But then, if I will be paying for a course like that... I would prefer that it come with some certification, so it can pay back in terms of job at some point in my life (yay society and its concept of credibility... but that's a sticky ethical debate, there!).

Alright. I have officially been distracted by sleep deprivation, sugar+tea, and a conversation with the woman that I wrote the last post about. This conversation involved talking about her sister hinting at her keeping friends as friends and such, and that a part of her agrees with her sister, and another part is "just saying yeah whatever." You can see how this is a distracting topic (antagonistic factors in this tale we weave: her religion; her family's super-traditional values; our internalized homophobia; my parents' non-acceptance; perhaps there are more...) Blood over love, in her case. Blood over love has, really, been my case as well. I was immediately enlightened with the idea of backing off, which I stated. She asked for an explanation, provided below: "On a selfish level, the choices you make may impact me; so it is definitely wise to consider (not necessarily "worry" about lol) what this may mean. On an honourable level, being the cause of torment of a creature I care about is a sticky ethical issue, perhaps best prevented kindly when possible. Makes sense?"


Further explanation for those who can't decipher my 3-am babble (myself included): "Basically, I can back off. So the choice to be friends is more in your hands, in a way. And if you choose to pursue the friendship, then again I will try to not do anything to specifically encourage you to engage beyond a friendship level. However, if your soul chooses to fall in love, and you choose to act on it... That's as far as I know what my own choices would be."

So now we are in a preamble meeting of sorts, with each other, on how to best continue. And she doesn't know. But she's definitely not sorry that she met me. So now I just want a hug. A good bear hug from her, or  a super long hug from, like... yeah I don't know who else. I wonder whether to transcribe the entire text message conversation on here but, in the end, it will all come down to seeing her again. Touching her hair, her skin, her body with my eyes.

The end.

Post Scriptum: I want a vampire bite piercing. XD